Nov 062017
 

 

My mom gives expecting mom the Mother’s Manual. This one is extra special because my aunt gave it to my grandma while she was pregnant with my mom.

 

Saying like “everything happens for a reason”, “good things come to those who wait”, and “patience is a virtue” may be great saying but when you’re trying to start a family they do not comfort you.  For those who have not had issues trying to pregnant it may seem like a great thing to say.  For some people those things might comfort them but for me it did not.  My husband and I started trying to get pregnant in April 2016.  For me it was not easy. I’m a person who takes anti-depressants and sleep aids so I had to begin with getting off some serious medication.  After a great deal of thought and prayers, I made the decision to go off all my medicine before getting pregnant.  My goal was to go off everything and try to stay off it while pregnant.  My husband and I decided that was the best thing for us.  Let me say that again, it was the best thing for me.  Everyone makes decision about their pregnancy and how they are going to do things.  I wanted to reduce the chances of the baby having issues in this way but I am not a doctor nor do I look down on anything who makes other decisions.   My goal was to go off the medicine and try to stay off it until the baby is born.  Goal being the key word.  I had prepared for not being able to do this.  I worked closely with my doctor to get off the medicine and had steps in place to try to set myself up to be able to do this.  Going off my medication is one of the hardest things I’ve ever done.   The emotional journey has been very difficult but I’ve been able to weather the storm so far.  My marriage and family have also been able to make it through as well.  Un-medicated Sarah is not the best person to be around.  There were time when I doubted if I could do it or if I should keep trying.

After the medication situation was handled we began trying to get pregnant.  I read tons of things and downloaded apps to try to help.  The first few months weren’t too bad because I just thought my body was just adjusting still.  When six months had come and gone I was beginning to doubt things.  I knew people who got pregnant right away and I could not understand why still was happening to me.   As the one year mark grew closer I made an appointment with a doctor to check to make sure there wasn’t something else I could do.  The doctor told me from what she could tell I was healthy and there was no reason she could see why it wasn’t working.  She referred me to an infertility doctor.  I was scared and thought things would only get worse from here.  In the time before my appointment I doubled down on the crazy fertility things I tried.  I drank green tea, took “special fertility supplements”, and prayed that this would happen.   When it came time again to take my pregnancy test for the month, I forced myself to do it again.  I had already prepared myself for another negative.   I sat and waited to check it and after the time was up I looked down to see a very faint line.   I could not believe it!  I read the box and googled faint line.  Everything I had read said that a line is positive even if it was not dark yet.  

I decided I needed to be sure before telling my husband so I bought a test that would say yes or no so there would not be any question.  It came back positive as well so I started to accept that it had finally happened.   My husband works third shift so I waited for him to wake up to tell him the good news.  He was just as excited as I was.  Our dream was finally coming true.  The time of my pregnancy was very interesting though.  We were due to close on a house in a couple weeks, and I was set to take one of the hardest classes at a summer class.  We decided to only share the news with a couple of family members at first because I was not very far along and if something were to happen I didn’t want to have to deal with that.  When I told my family I cried each time.  I was so happy but I’m sure those hormones placed a part too.   I could not believe it had finally happened.   I joked that I just needed to make an appointment with a infertility doctor for things to work out.   That first month I was an emotional wreck.  I cried at everything and did not handle the stress of moving and my summer class very well.  My poor husband probably thought I was never going to be a sane person again.

I took tests weeks apart to see the line get darker.

I’m now 28 weeks along and starting my third trimester.   I’ve been lucky and haven’t had morning sickness or many symptoms.  I volunteered to get ultrasounds by college students to get more chances to see my little miracle.  I feel very blessed that I was able to pregnant on my own.  I know it doesn’t happen so everyone and that each time it does it should be cherished.   It has become clear to be that everything does happen for a reason, good things come to those who wait, and patience is a virtue.   My prayers were answered but just not in the time frame I wanted.  The truth is that the time is really great.   We moved into a bigger house, and I’m going to graduate from college a month before the baby it due.  God’s plan is something that is hard to see and understand but putting my faith in him is what had gotten me this far.  I’ve been able to stay off of my medication and the baby is healthy.   I can’t wait to welcome a baby girl in January and see where that journey takes my family.

Nov 162016
 

The 2016 election cycle was pretty crazy.  I don’t think anyone could have imagined how this would have turned out.  I’m glad it’s all over.  The best thing to come out of all of this nonsense is the the Joe Biden memes about things he’s going to do around the White House to mess with Trump.  Enjoy!

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May 312016
 

s-l300“Drink Water! Hurry up, Drink! Put your canteen over your head when you’re done. Hurry up private I don’t have all day.” I can remember having those words being screamed at me in the summer of 2003 at basic training like it was yesterday.  I was 18 and had never been away from my family for more than a week.  I did my training at Fort Leonard Wood, Missouri aka Fort Lost in the Woods.   Being from Southern Indiana the weather in Missouri wasn’t much different than at home.   The idea that you have to stay hydrated was drilled into me.   At the time I didn’t thinking how the Drill Sergeants were just trying to have another reason to yell at us.  They told us we don’t want to fall out and become a “heat casualty”. They would yell to drink water and we would reply Beat the Heat Drill Sergeant Beat the Heat!”  I’d never really been a fan on water and drank multiple Dr. Peppers a day.  Around five years ago I decided to cut out “cokes” as us Southern Indiana folks refer to them as.  I decided to cut out caffeine and my beloved Dr. Pepper.  It was rough at first but I’m glad I did it.  I will have the occasional coke but I generally don’t drink them.  I now drink 100 ounces or more of water a day.

I know what you’re thinking, that’s a lot of water.  It seems like a lot when I write it down but really isn’t.  I drink Ice Mountain bottled water, each bottle is 16.9oz.  If I drink a bottle with each meal, that’s 50 oz already.  Since I’ve starting doing hot yoga it’s become very important to drink plenty of water.  When I first started hot yoga I never thought I’d have enough to not feel like I’m dying of thirst.  I bought a Liquid Savvy’s 32 oz Stainless Steel Insulated Water Bottle that keeps my water cold through my entire class at hot yoga.  It’s pretty awesome.  I’m recently getting to the point where I can get through a class and not feel as if I were going to burst into flames and die of thirst at the same time.  If I’m doing a long class that’s 90 minutes long I’ve drank my 64 in a class when the room is full of people and hotter than usual.  I’ve been going to hot yoga just about everyday so with the class alone I drink 64 plus ounces.  I try  and hydrate throughout the day so I don’t feel bad after class.

I learned many things that summer in 2003.  How to take a 5 minute or less shower, to function without sleep, how to eat in 5 minutes or less, if you have a chance to go to the bathroom take it, how to shine boots and iron uniforms, and that people will steal anything, even your white granny panties you have to wear.  My Drill Sergeant of course was right and I need to Drink Water.  During yoga the instructors usually say to take a sip of water, which in my mind that means Drink Water!!!

Apr 292016
 

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With summer just around the corner and I’m trying to get my “beach body” ready. This year I set a goal of running 5 races and a half marathon.  I’m doing good so far with 3 under my belt already and a race set for May. I’m really working on losing weight and get into shape.  I’m never going to be a tiny skinny girl, my body just isn’t that way.  I have big legs and that isn’t going to change.   I can work at trimming down and toning.  My friend Erin told me I should try hot yoga because she loves it.  I enjoy running and usually at least do a mile or so.  I was skeptical about it and worried how I’d do in class.  I still agreed I’d try it out.   I’ve heard horror stories about hot yoga.  I could picture myself drenched in sweat and laying there like a beached whale.   I did a year in Iraq so I figured hot yoga would be fine.

My first class was 65 minutes long class and wasn’t too hard to keep up.  I watched other people and Erin to see what I was supposed to be doing.  They told me that the goal for your first class is to stay in the room the entire class.  I was able to do that.  A few days after my first class my sister Mary asked if I wanted to go to class with her.   I’d already worked out with weights and cardio for 2 hours. I thought no worries I’ll be fine.  I was not fine.  I repeat, I was not fine! Rule #1 of Hot Yoga is to know how long your class is. Mary and I went to 6:15 class and it was packed. We almost didn’t have enough room for everyone. Little did we know the class was actually an hour and a half long.  I kept looking at my watch thinking is this class ever going to end? It finally did and I peeled myself off the floor and filled my water bottle back up.  Rule #2 if you’re going to run and do hot yoga in the same day, run after yoga.  I’ve made myself kinda miserable because I pushed too hard.

I go to classes at Yoga 101.  They told me about a challenge that would be starting in April.  The challenge is to do 40 classes in 60 days.  After the 90 minutes class trauma I took a few days off from class.  I’m not doing too bad right now.  I have learned some things since beginning hot yoga; 1. Drink water all the time.  I usually drink a good amount of water but I’d increased my water intake a lot because of yoga.  2. Bring a big bottle of water with you.  The average 16.9 bottle of water that you usually grab it’s enough for the entire class.  I’ve been filling my camel-back bottle that’s 32oz and drink all of it or close every class. 3. Bring a towel for your mat and one to wipe yourself off with.  If I don’t dry myself off multiple time during class I can’t do some of the poses because my legs become slippery noodles. 4. Let your guard down.  The instructors all say to only do what your body can do right now.  I’m very competitive and I’m trying to not get down on myself because I can’t do something.  5. Child’s pose is your friend.  6.  You will get better faster than you think.  Today I completed my 6th class in a row.  I can tell a difference already in my flexibility and balance.

I wasn’t sure if hot yoga was going to become part of my workout routine in the beginning.  I’m hooked now though.  I’m still working out some kinks like how much water I really need to drink or with eating before or after classes. I’m still trying to balance running and yoga.  It’s going to be interesting to see how things go this summer.

Feb 152016
 

My husband renewed my blog because I promised I’d post more often.  He said I can’t keep followers if I don’t post more than once every few months.  I’ve recently gone back to school and plan to some blog post about being my age and the kids I’m in class with.  I’ve also set goals for myself in running this year.  I ran my first race and it was 15 degrees outside, it was terrible.  So keep the faith, I’ll be back soon.

Nov 212015
 

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I recently got married and joined the community of Law Enforcement Officer(LEO) Wives.  Being the spouse of a cop it’s always easy.  Just knowing that your spouse might not come home is hard enough. Now with the climate of hatred of police it’s even scarier. I’m not going to rant about how people should respect the boys in blue.  I’m going to share the funny side of being around LEOs. You might be a LEO spouse if:

You have more guns in your house than rooms.

You put up laundry and find a gun you didn’t know about.

Having a concealed carry permit is a way of life.

You know their co-workers by name and badge number.

You have 2 police scanners in your house.

You listen to the scanner for fun and not just when your spouse is working.

You hear a taser in the other room and don’t flinch.

Your spouse has offered to pepper spray you to help you get rid of a cold.

You hear the nightly checklist before they leave for work: Gun, Radio, Phone.

The sound of a round being chambered is reassuring.

I’m very proud of my husband and the work he does everyday.  Hopefully before too long I’ll be not only a LEO wife but a LEO myself.

Nov 212015
 

advocareBack in July I tried the 10 day Advocare Cleanse to drop weight leading up to my wedding.  The cleanse had a fiber drink you take in the morning and supplement pills taken in the morning and evening.  I had been warned that the fiber drink was terrible tasting so I decided to add a fruit punch pre-workout powder to it.  It made it go down ok but the consistency was still gross.  It’s thick and chalky.  Along with the Advocare products you’re supposed to eat healthy, no added sugar, and not eat red meat.  I did ok with cutting calories, and exercising but not eating red meat was hard for me.  I never realized how often eat something until you cut it out.

I was very happy with my results.  I lost 9 pounds and felt really good when I was finished.  It helped me jump start my weight loss.  I actually did the cleanse I second time before my wedding, even though it’s not recommended to do so.  I would recommend Advocare to anyone looking for my help getting started. My entire weight loss journey ended with my losing 16 pounds all together.  I’ve been slacking lately.  I’m trying to get back on track.  I’ve gained some of the weight back but I know with hard work I can meet my goal weight.

Nov 212015
 

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2015 has been a big year for me.   I got engaged, got married, and I’m quitting my job.  I’m quitting my job to go back to school. I’m thankful to have a supportive husband who is allowing me to make this leap. I’ve had a job since I was 14 so I’m not really sure how to be unemployed.  I’m going to the University of Southern Indiana in the spring to continue my Criminal Justice degree.

I’m lucky for a couple reasons. One, I have school benefits left from serving in the Army.  Two, I qualify for a program I didn’t even know existed that will pay 50% of my tuition.  When I met with an advisor she explained the 50% program.  Since I’m a returning student I can get 50% of my tuition paid for as long as I stay in school until I finish the degree.  It’s a win-win for me because I’m a junior so I’m hoping to be finished in 4 semesters if not faster.

Returning to school is pretty scary to me because I’m 31 and haven’t been a full time student in 10 years.  I know it’s going to take a lot of work but I know in the future having a degree will benefit me.

Jul 152015
 

I got talked into using Advocare products. At work around 6 people have being doing a 24 day challenge. They have gotten good results so I’m going to try part of it. Today is day 1 of a 10 days Advocare cleanse. Took morning pills and drank the fiber drink. I’d heard how bad the fiber drink tasted but it didn’t repair me for it. It is terrible! 73 days till my wedding going to try and be strong.